Don't know where this mood came from. Waning moon, maybe.
Normally, if I get into a place like this, just reminding myself of how much about my life I love helps. Spending time in the garden helps. Anticipating fun stuff to come helps.
Today it's not. Helping.
I did take a walk in the garden.
I had chopped off about half of my favorite plant, geum 'Totally Tangerine', a few weeks ago and planted some of the pieces into 1-gallon pots. I am delighted that they are all thriving, shooting up new leaves and buds. Not sure where I'll plant them - eventually - but I am gratified that the experiment worked.
It's been a couple of years since I've had sweet peas, my favorite flower. This year I bought them in 4" pots at Roger's Gardens in Corona del Mar rather than try to grow them from seed. They're just starting to bloom and should be wonderful well into the summer. Trick with sweet peas is to cut cut cut the flowers so they don't go to seed.
Oh gee darn.
Brugmansia 'Creamsicle' is blooming like crazy. The hydrangea wall is in bud. (Need to go blue a couple up.) I have a half dozen plants to put in the ground, too. I should get that done today.
But I'm still chomping at the bit. Astrologically, I'm a Cancer (or rather, I guess we're Cancerians, now) on the cusp with Gemini. Gemini is making herself known and Cancer doesn't know what to do with her. Gemini wants to get in a car and start driving for a few days, just to see something new. Or on a plane. Or a ship.
For some reason, cruises keep presenting themselves to my imagination. One of my colleagues took his family on a Disney cruise to Alaska last year and they had a blast. This year another colleague had a happy financial circumstance and so he and his wife decided to take their kids on a Disney cruise this summer. They both like to talk about it. In front of me. Then, out of the blue, my sister starts talking about wanting to take a Disney cruise. Well, yeah, sure it's something I'd love to do someday, Disney Geek that I am. And normally I would be saying "Wow, three mentions in a row! Can't be a coincidence, let's go!"
Not going to happen. Not yet, anyway.
And so, here I am, trying to make lemonade.
Or, maybe roseade?
Yeah yeah yeah. It's a gorgeous day. My roses are gorgeous. My Fairy Garden is gorgeous and on its way to more gorgeous. There are baby mourning doves in one of the orange trees. The goldfinches are back to gossiping at the nyger feeder. I have a fine dog snoring at my feet. I spent a peaceful yesterday stitching on a quilt at my Mom's, then going for a fabulous salad at a favorite restaurant.
Except that something is missing.
Something is off.
It will pass. It always does. But in the meantime...